Never have I ever and what I’ve done.

The history exam didn’t go too well.  It wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t good either.

I went out drinking with my friends this evening. We played Never have I ever and it was then that I realized that I was actually a prude. I couldn’t drink for anything they would say, cause I’d never done anything they mentioned. And all they mentioned was sexual stuff.

Never have I ever been with a person sexually.

And I was the only person who didn’t drink to that.

It’s not that I’ve never don’t shit. I have. But just not anything that falls under the “sexual” category. And honestly, I don’t know how to feel about that.

I’ve had guys hit on me. So I guess I could say I’ve had the opportunity. But I guess, irrespective of what I say, I actually consider my “firsts” very special.

My first kiss. My first time.

I pretend to love being single. I actually do love being single. But some nights I just find myself craving for someone’s hands to hold, or someone to cuddle with, someone to kiss.

With everyone around you drinking for every sexual “Never have I ever”, it just gets you thinking, I suppose.

Maybe one day I’ll find someone to love. Someone whose hand I can hold, someone I can kiss. Someone I can turn to in my time of need. And even though I’m having the time of my life at the moment, I hope that day comes soon.

Cause the number of times I feel lonely seems to be increasing.

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One thought on “Never have I ever and what I’ve done.

  1. I commend you for staying pure and choosing to wait for the right time with the right person. Not because everybody else is doing it doesn’t mean that it was the right thing anyways. And certainly there should be other stuffs that you can involve yourself with (other than being sexually active with someone) that would bring you happiness… Genuine happiness comes from within– not from outside factor. Cheers! 🙂

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